I keep asking myself this question: Is life difficult because it’s difficult or am I making it difficult?

I’ve always believed that we all create our own reality by what we think. I still believe this with my whole being – if I manage to think about it ………………… and not just react habitually.

One of the main roadblocks to spiritual enlightenment is called SAMSARA in the Hindu tradition. The Hindu tradition is where I found my center – the center of my beliefs – the alternative to my religion at birth and instead, the way of life I wish to emulate.

Samsara is repetitive action and thoughts ………… how we react to similar situations, and challenges and is second nature when we experience chaos. It’s like having a tape running in your head that supersedes your thought processes and puts your consciousness out of business. All of a sudden, fear and/or anger drives you and you are no longer mindful, you are no longer in the moment. You have rushed ahead to all the bad things that might happen!

Vasishta’s Yoga explains this concept ………… that we always see a snake where there is only a coiled rope …………. that there is always some emergency or fear we IMAGINE, always a predictable reaction we have to chaos in our lives – OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN, This automatic response keeps us in the matrix of fear …………….. we can see nothing else. It is our habit.

My thought and belief that we all create our own reality by what we think, means I’d best stop thinking in the old, normal, habitual manner. I manage this quite well in my everyday life on the farm with my husband. I don’t manage it when I focus on the outside world, politics, and what Vasishta calls the world chaos.

If I am responsible for creating my own life, am I also responsible for the chaos in the world? Are we all responsible for the shambles of our once-great country? Have I contributed to this ugly world?

The answer has to be yes. I wish I could figure out how. I cannot yet. I ponder why there is so much hate in the world, yet I feel the hate too. My mind blows up into complete Armegeddon when something I think should happen does not and when something happens that is obviously pure evil.

I’ve always been what my mother called pig-headed, like an old bear. She objected to my independent nature. Goodness, did she ever! My inability to change my beliefs and actions to be “accepted” by persons or organizations is entrenched in me. And it may be a case of samsara – I don’t know. I do know I’m not going to change that part of me. First, I can’t. And second, I don’t want to. I won’t ever act in any manner to be “popular.”

I look back at my life and see times when I removed myself from social interaction. Contemplation has always been my first choice of activity. My first order of thought was trying to figure out how to be the kind of person I want to be. Not conforming with what everyone else believes to be good or “normal”, rocking the boat, and not sitting still – were my goals for as long as I can remember.

I look at my natal chart to see my life road map. The planets, the houses they are in, and the aspects between them paint a picture of my opportunities, challenges, and outcomes. It is the same for every chart. It isn’t that life is set down in stone because of the location of the planets at birth, but that the natal chart shows what is possible. And what is possible is beyond any set of circumstances we face here in this Earth realm. What is possible, what is the highest possible goal is the connection to God, the Cosmic Consciousness, the Silent Watcher ……… the divinity within us all.

It’s been a rough 11 days. We are all shell-shocked by the events that keep happening. There is no time to adjust, calm down, or center ourselves between catastrophic events. I urge us all to CENTER, to gain control once again of our chattering minds, running in circles around our lives ………………. Be here now, don’t be there then, Namaste, Jennifer